Leading is nothing more than having a list of names to pray for

Sorry I've been MIA for the last couple of weeks, it's been a mad hectic buzz of activity.

Actually have a rather lengthy post about my reflections of the past overly unsustainable semester haha, but it's only halfway done haha.

Anyway, thank you all for your prayers :) I am absolutely confident that there was an underlying peace despite the obviously horrid consequences of losing a computer, and I know that peace came as an answer to all your prayers. Just got my computer back two days ago -- I couldn't recover my data, but I have my most important stuff backed-up, so I can live with that :)

Just wanted to post some very quick thoughts.

1. I was talking to my cg leader from freshman year, and she said being a cg leader was nothing more than having a list of names to pray for for the entire year. Very piercing reminder to any of us who have any positions of spiritual leadership.

2. Am slowly beginning to understand the dynamics of Christian growth. Looking back over the semester, I realize the periods of growth for me were when I reached the point of complete trust in God and His will for my life - and not my own efforts/grades/eloquence - and saw Him work; or when I struggled to submit certain areas of my life, and subsequently learnt to give it up. And conversely my periods of dryness were when my prayers lacked faith, and thus even when God worked there was no realization; or when I didn't search my heart for sin or was living in denial and wasn't actively seeking for renewal.

And it really isn't that our relationship with God is dependent on Him working miracles, but that our relationship with Him active ongoing conversation, rather than a monologue - if we don't give Him room to speak into our lives, we have no right to blame Him for our stunted or non-existent growth.

3. Will be serving in a cg (or family group as we call it here). Am really excited, for much personal growth, but more than anything to learn to love and have a servant's heart. Which is why I brought up point #1 :)

4. Hehe if you have time to kill and want a good mentally-stimulating online game, I recommend Desktop Tower Defence.